As much as you are absolutely right, I have to face reality and work with what's around me, (adaptation). I will be going on a journey very soon to see Demon and view his facility. you know what's sad Muhammad? I have never really had a teacher, I have had many people who have helped me but never a teacher or someone that really looked out for me, and in a way i am kind of resentful. So I am lookinf for others, and i know there are no excuses for my own naivity, but right now i have a lot of responsibility and because of that looking for a teacher has been difficult, so I have let oen thing be my moto "The teacher finds the student" it will happen and I'm a strong believer of that.
MURG