You, sir, are going through the end of teens (Child hood) freak out stage. A fun time for most young men and women. You see people with their relationships and friends and stuff, and you compare your life to theres. Problem is, you don't see there issues or how they feel.
You feel as though you should have life figured out. "I should have a girl Friend" "I should feel like a man" "I Should blah blah blah". Life is not some straight line that everyone walks together in the same way. I'm not going to tell you life gets easier, cause it doesn't, it gets harder, but with the right state of mind it gets a lot more fun. When you truly understand that life is about overcoming hardships, you will realize that those who had hard lives live the greatest lives.
I could tell you about my failed engagements, my child hood house burning down, that I started losing my hair at 15, how I was about 125lbs at 21, how and why I dropped out of highschool or how worthless I considered myself for a long time and much more. Or I could just tell you that I love the person that I am now, how I woke up, got degrees, have no problem getting a girl (keeping one is tough still
) how I'm starting a business, Have a good job, do parkour, climb, kayak, shoot, and engage in all kinds of awesomeness.
The Radioactive spider isn't what made Peter Parker into spider-man, It just gave him some power, his confidence, swagger, trash talk and love of swinging around New York. It was the confidence and morals that made him a hero. We all have a hidden power inside of us, just gotta find it.
Hope this helps, If ya ever need to talk, Myself and this community are actually very understanding to these types of things