Topic: I need help.

[Dj Dean]

DJ, one of the reasons I asked you if you have studied music as, when I was in college, I was actually studying audio engineering while simultaneously studying music at Ars Nova. I reached a point where I could compose for and direct brass and string sections of an orchestra.

What that did for me, and what your learning has probably done for you is, give you a level of appreciation where you can hear what every musician is doing simultaneously.  If you went out to watch a band (in my case I lived in latin america and there were plenty at the parties I went to), I could close my eyes and identify each instrument and what it was doing... pretty trippy

If you can't relate to a certain type of music at a given time in your life, you can still appreciate the arrangements, the virtuosity and the creativity. I know you're really into metal, but I'm sure you can still appreciate other stuff... here's a nice sample at the extreme opposite of the spectrum, for instance...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ApI-zA6suXE

I most definitely do appreciate everything in that video. Except the vocals (I'm sorry, I just never have liked vocals like that), everything else is great. It isn't necessarily the opposite end of the spectrum in my opinion. I hear a lot of math metal that sounds pretty similar to that, but it doesn't contain as many instruments as your example does. This video will show you a good example of how they're similar (though as I compare, the distortion really makes a sound difference) musically.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bt-RoSzsEKA                                                         
   

I used to like metal a lot too, back when I used to be somewhat depressed and always angry a couple years ago. It just seemed like a nice break from all the songs that everyone else used to listen to, (which I think is..?) pop and all these songs like "I Got a Feeling" and whatnot; it's just nice to have your own kind of music and I loved the hardcore feeling of it. But in my opinion music always generally is an expression of one's self or attitude, and people relate to it. Nowadays there's even more and more music out there that seems totally opposite of what I used to listen to, generally what some people put in their pk/freerunning videos just for a nice rhythm or flow to add to it.

My favorite bands used to be (which I believe are considered metal..?) Three Days Grace, Disturbed, etc., but now I've learned to have an appreciation for all music and it's not about where it comes from or what other people like, but what you enjoy yourself. It's really widened my view as to what calms me and what pumps me up. My different music now consists of Dubstep (duh ), Pretty Lights, and maybe some metal anyway. You can compare that to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sk9XYQMRiLY

No, they aren't metal, but if you aren't immersed in the culture it's hard to tell a difference. Honest mistake and send me some more music like the song finally moving, if you have the time. I enjoyed that. Only thing I personally don't like is the record scratching? But it has a very relaxed atmosphere. Actually, you should check this song out. I think it would be awesome to just go out and run to!
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjCKBuyobgc             

[Nick Fernandez]

Thanks, I wasn't sure exactly what kind of bands I listened to, since whenever I googled/wiki'd them it came up different as either rock/metal/other and it was hard to tell. But the artist who made Finally Moving has all the albums on the site at http://www.prettylightsmusic.com/ that you can download for free. Some really nice instrumental stuff for when you can't find good lyrics

[Dj Dean]

I'm feeling better, guys. I did some tuck planches today, and to my amazement, I can hold them longer now due to losing about 6 pounds (went from 156 to 150) Thanks for all the support, fellas.

[Ryan Sannar]

WooT!!!!!

[David Glass]

I'm feeling better, guys. I did some tuck planches today, and to my amazement, I can hold them longer now due to losing about 6 pounds (went from 156 to 150) Thanks for all the support, fellas.

Good job! It's a start. Just remember, there are bad days, but they're always followed by better ones ;-)

[Jennifer]

Congratulations on feeling better.

I've also dealt with depression, although it sounds mild compared to what you've been through.

Shortly before I started parkour, I felt as though I'd lost touch with who I was. I was too busy being what everyone else wanted or needed me to be. I had this image of myself in my mind of who I was, of what I was all about, but I hadn't expressed it in years.

I got depressed and was crying all the time. I'd wake up sobbing, spend the day barely holding it together, crying at times, and collapse into tears at night. It was so frustrating because, even then, I was still having to live out all the roles that were expected of me instead of being myself.

Parkour is what changed it for me. I was chasing my kids around a park and just happened to see people practicing parkour. I'd been interested in it for years, but hadn't ever gotten the chance to train with others, and didn't even realize there were so many resources for it on the web, because when I first became interested, there wasn't. I literally told my husband, "Get the kids," walked up to the people and said, "I've never done parkour, but can I train with you?"

And that first day, those first few minutes, I felt like me again.

For me, the root of the depression was the disconnect between the person I felt I was and the life I lived. I addressed that, and the depression was gone.

What is the root of your depression? Can it be addressed?

[Josh Wright]

I'm feeling better, guys. I did some tuck planches today, and to my amazement, I can hold them longer now due to losing about 6 pounds (went from 156 to 150) Thanks for all the support, fellas.

Rock on, brother! You have all of our support.