Well i've really skipped around through here, but I've read quite a bit. Good luck with the pull up's, i'm trying to do muscle ups right now so I know the feeling of being stuck in a place and not being able to move more.

Also, not too sure if this is your outlook but thought i'd give a bit of advice. Try and look at body composition(body fat, how it looks) rather than body weight. Some girls think they're out of shape because they weigh too much, but they don't consider that it's good weight.

Good luck with all your training, by the way, where are you located?

Thanks to Codygman and Carolyn!

Yeah, I understand about the weight thing. I am getting thinner. I really must remember that! It's just so embarrassing when mom acts all surprised about how heavy I am when she finds out what my weight is, then has to tell her friends about how much I weigh. It's not really any of their business.  I really want a nice, low number to tell her!

And, I'm located in Northern California. North Redding to be exact.

Thank you so much Carolyn! You're welcome to come and share the job!  ::hugs back::

Agreed. Although self-esteem is IMO a major load of BS, you have a right to privacy for certain things, things like this.

Woah! Lot's of comments since I was here!

Thank you Grayson, but I have to agree with Spencer. Again  . Anyway, I think that high self-esteem just inflates a person's ego until they're impossible to work with. Or for.

Lol, Chris! I guess that could work!


Weekend of September 20

No workouts. Just drudging through work.

Diet was good Saturday, but I crashed again Sunday. On the bright side, I only messed up one day this weekend!!


Monday, September 22

Sleep: OK. Dreamed I was working all night. 

Diet: Craved carbs like crazy. Got some good helpings of vegetables in, but also a lot of bread and cereal.

Finally got some fish oil supplements. Today was my first day taking them. I'm interested in seeing if they do anything for me... Also going to make it a goal to remember to take my multi-vitamins every day, not every few weeks when I remember.

Exercise:

No structured workout. Did a few negative pullups. They're feeling like an old book. You feel nauseous just thinking about reading it again because you already know how it's going to end, and reading it again isn't going to change anything.

Also did some Leg-lift work. I found out if I can set a chair near the piano and talk someone into sitting in it, I can hold myself up between the piano and chair.

Gonna have to be more careful about staying "under the radar" with my running and such. Dad wanted to know what I've been doing that's making my knees hurt so much. I finally told him I think maybe it's because I'm trying to get running into my life. You know, if I'm trying to get from here to there, I might as well run it. I just thought maybe I'd overdone it or something. Got a nice fatherly lecture about how girls aren't built to run and do things guys do. I'm a woman, I'm supposed to be lady-like, and if I want exercise that bad, just take a nice long walk.  Problem is, I'm not supposed to leave the house on foot without a brother or two as escort. Sooo, how am I going to get those "nice long walks" in? He also recommended I try MSM/Chrondoitine (sp?) to help my joints.

You could get your brothers to run with you! IDK if this is actually a plausible suggestion but I may as well put it out there. Or you could invent an imaginary brother and hypnotize you father into thinking he is real.

You never know if it'll work unless you try it!

David

Another "Thank You" to everyone.

Chris, I do have a pillbox as you suggested, but it's a little too small. I can fit three pills in it: 1 fish oil, 1 multivitamin, 1 MSM/Glucosamine. I now keep it on my desk, and for three days in a row now I've remember to take my pills! Yay for me! 

David, I tried a few times to run with my brothers, but they're like 5 times faster than me and can run probably 10 times longer. They either get irritated because I'm dragging them down so much, or just leave me behind. But Joseph is willing to try it again, if I can manage to drag him out of bed early in the morning to do it.

Grayson, Thanks for the advice! I'm going to try exercising in a different place, with different scenery. Like, outside on the back driveway or something instead of my room. I dunno if that'll help...

Tuesday, September 22

Diet: Moderately good.

Sleep: Slept in. Was very sleepy all day.

Knees were OK today. Worked, but rode in the van each way.

Today was an awesome day for us! The boys bought a pickup!! Woohoo! They own the pickup, but I'm the only kid (at home) with a driver license! We'll see how it works out, but this means we may be able to have a little more freedom to go more places...
There's a Fitness19 gym not too far away. I'm thinking, if it's not too expensive, I could get a membership there, and, with the boy's permission, use their truck to go? If I can find Crossfit, maybe I could even work that out? Anyway, pretty excited about that!

Ok, back to serious stuff.

Workout:
3 rounds:
10 knee pushups
11 situps
10 squats First round on these was terrible. Couldn't remember how to balance. Second round, a little better, but ended up hanging onto a table for balance at the bottom of the squat. Third round, much better form.
The ladder agility workout stuff from APK warmup
4 burpees. Terribly slow and awkward.
Did a little frog planche work, but after a few seconds wrist pain kicked in, and I quit from fear of damaging it again.
1/2 hour of stretching. 

Not to step out of bounds but does the name FLO-JO mean anything to you in regards to the whole women not being built to run?  <Florence Griffith-Joyner>  Wiki her.  Also tell that to the 9000+ women who completed last years Boston Marathon, give yourself a little "ammunition" next time the topic comes up and you are told women are not built to run.  It's a matter of Heart, Desire and Commitment.

As for Self Esteem, don't completely knock it we are Social Creatures and therefore fall prey to Maslow's hierarchy of needs.  While it is not as important as Physiological needs, the need for a secure environment, or the need to be love and accepted,  it is still a need.

A perception of ones self based on reaction of how one sees themselves in their environment.  Same reason abused children tend to have a low feeling of self worth.

I will leave my two cents there, if you want the full nickel. message me and i will be glad to finish.  If you don't like what I am saying i guess you could always give me bad karma points or ask me not to post anymore and i will respect that also.

Good Luck and Keep Training... Progress is Progress no matter how small, Rome wasn't Built in a Day

Hmm. I'm loving the self-esteem arguments. I've never really thought about it before. Something to think about!

As for the whole women thing, our family is very... traditional, I guess you could say. It's Ok. I don't mind, mostly. I even think in some ways it's better than some other ways we could have been raised. I just have to be cautious. Besides, "Stolen water is sweet." Maybe if Parkour was an approved activity, and if my parents didn't care if I did it or not, I wouldn't be so  into it.

Wednesday, September 23

Diet: Moderately good. Too much bread again. Must remember moderation!!!

Got a special call-in to work to assist with a "Purple-Heart Veterans Luncheon." Walked to work, was a rover there, doing anything and everything that no-one else had time for, meaning the two hours was extremely hectic. Walked home. Knees were hurting again my end of work.  But not as much as before. Had some issues with wrist pain. The problem I had before is back, albeit in a milder form. ERK! BUT, it was so amazing to walk and type and everything, because since I started taking fish oil and MSM, my joints are greased! Or something. It's so cool!  They almost feel like they could move on their own! I spent the evening just wiggling my fingers and rotating my ankles and stuff, just because! I don't really know how to explain it, but it's like I've lived my life with sandpaper in all my joints, and now it's been taken out! Really loving it.

No workout. The time I was hoping to spend on workout was spent giving Gideon a driving lesson. He's not bad. He's driven tractors and bee trucks around the farm since he was 7, but never up to speed on a real road with traffic. Just drove around the block a few times, reviewing the basics, and trying to correct his steering techniques and stuff. I think I did a good job not freaking out, remaining calm, etc., but I think every muscle I own was tensed to the max. I felt like I'd had a good workout after that!